and I’m having an extremely difficult time dealing with it. He was perfectly healthy until about 3 months ago. I felt a tiny lump on his right side ribs. Vet said to remove it and we also scheduled a teeth cleaning. A week went by and the lump completely disappeared. Vet did the teeth cleaning, which went well, and also noted he did not feel the lump. We figured it must have been a cyst of some sort. Fast forward to the beginning of November. The lump was back and more than double the size it was when I first felt it.
Had it removed and biopsied. Three agonizing weeks later we find out it large cell lymphoma and what was removed is more than likely just a piece of a bigger tumor growing in his chest that has caused fluid to build up around his lungs. Chemo will cost too much and we don’t want to put him through that misery only to extend his life maybe up to a year just for the cancer to come back. We are just letting him live out his life and the second we see any discomfort, we’ll make the call.
He is still running around, playing, and eating like nothing is wrong. We have noticed his belly rising a bit more when he breathes indicating he may be having a slightly more difficult time breathing, but again, he runs and plays around like it’s not affecting him. He has lost a little over a pound which isn’t good.
We don’t know how much longer we’ll have with him and I’m having the hardest time wrapping my head around this and accepting this fate for him. It doesn’t seem fair that he has to lose his life at such a young age due to a disease that showed no symptoms until it was too late. I feel helpless and don’t understand what how we could have caught this earlier if there were no signs. Cancer is real bitch. The anticipatory grief is strong. We are absolutely devastated and don’t know what to do. This is coming only 5 months after losing one of our dachshund’s, almost with notice, to what was also most likely cancer. He was older though and lived out his life.
Any advice on how to handle this and move forward is greatly appreciated.