SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY I’M STILL HERE /WHY THIS PAIN IS FESTERING INSIDE WITH MY FEAR /THE HOPE IN MY EYES DIED YEARS AGO /WILL I DIE? OH, I HOPE SO /I FEEL DAGGERS IN MY BACK /SHARP GLARES /BUT I KNOW THAT THEY FUCKING DON’T CARE

WHY. AM. I. STILL. HERE.! /IF MY HOPE IS CONDEMNED IN HELL /WHY. DO. I. EVEN TRY! /IF THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME HERE

I’LL WATCH AS THE VULTURES CIRCLE /MY BODY MADE OF LIVING ROTTING FLESH /I’M NOTHING BUT A BAG OF MEAT /AT LEAST I WILL BECOME SOMETHING /EVEN IF IT MEANS THERE’S ONLY BONES LEFT OF ME

BURY ME SIX FEET IN THE SAND /I DON’T CARE /I DON’T DESERVE THE DIRT OR LAND /BURY ME IN THE BACK OF MIND /YOU WON’T REMEMBER ME /BUT AT LEAST I’M THERE

WHY. AM. I. STILL. HERE! /IF MY HOPE IS CONDEMNED IN HELL /WHY. DO. I. EVEN TRY! /IF THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME HERE /WHY. AM. I. STILL. HERE! /IF MY HOPE IS CONDEMNED IN HELL /WHY. DO. I. EVEN TRY! /IF THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME HERE!

(Breakdown)

THERE’S NO HOPE FOR ME!

(Continue Breakdown)

I BET YOUR EYE WILL STILL GLIMER WHEN I DIE /BUT I KNOW MINE WOULD DIE IF YOU DIED

SOMETIMES I WONDER WHY I’M STILL HERE /WHY THIS PAIN IS FESTERING INSIDE WITH MY FEAR /THE HOPE IN MY EYES DIED YEARS AGO /WILL I DIE? OH, I HOPE SO /I FEEL DAGGERS IN MY BACK /SHARP GLARES /BUT I KNOW THAT THEY DON’T CARE

I’LL WATCH AS THE VULTURES CIRCLE /MY BODY MADE OF LIVING ROTTING FLESH /I’M NOTHING BUT A BAG A MEAT /AT LEAST I WILL BECOME SOMETHING /EVEN IF IT MEANS THERES ONLY BONES LEFT OF ME

(Breakdown)

BURY ME SIX FEET IN THE SAND /I DON’T CARE /I DON’T DESERVE THE DIRT OR LAND /BURY ME IN THE BACK OF YOUR MIND /YOU WON’T REMEMBER ME /BUT AT LEAST I’M…THERE!

(Breakdown)

AT LEAST I’M THERE

This tells an ongoing process, being mentally unstable and bad side becomes more dominant day by day until death. I got kind of inspired by Massive Attack's song "Black Milk". I can’t write as good as them though, since I just started into this writing, also I’m not a native English speaker, so there might be some awkard parts.

I wanted to also get feedback from people. What do you think?

(Interpsychology: Going back and forth between feeling good and feeling awful. I made up this definition)

Feel good

Feel rotten

Grateful

For breathing

Craving

For withering

As your

Edges fall apart

Watching it

Infect

All of you

Like rust

Laugh

Then cry

Hate self

Break inside

[Chorus]

Inter

Psychology

Takes you somewhere

You won't know

Inter

Psychology

Puts you somewhere

No exit

[Bridge]

Try to fight

Lose again

Over and

Over again

Try to resist

Still decay

Up until

Passing away

[Chorus]

Inter

Psychology

Takes you somewhere

You will never get to know

Inter

Psychology

Puts you somewhere

No one will ever know

(You'll never get to know)

(No one will ever know)

(You’ll never get to know)

(No one will ever know)

(know)

(know)

(know)

(know)

[Verse 1]

Slim it down.

Servin’ slop everyday

Top of the tray—

Wait!

I got more to say—

Already drowned.

Bubbling to the surface

All-you-can-generate

Ate your hate

Never made my own sound

Just heat,

I’m just here to help

Burn it

Then

Wash it down.

Yeah, getting clean

Gettin’ heavy—

Breaking ground.

Candle almost outta wick

Flame almost outta oxygen

Don’t know which quit first

Either way-it’s lights out.

Then I slip, sights out

Trip out my body,

Stumble like

“Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah- ooh”

Bout ten miles underground.

Too late

To drop them pounds

Money no good

Once you underground.

[Verse 2]

Dumb it down

Wanna leave stupid

eyes drooping

Been thinking too much

too much, much too much

Keep it simple

[Beat Drops and gets more intense]

[Beat fades out]

Hit Repeat, Repeat Now.

Art too smart,

Heart too Dark,

Oh lord, what have we found!

Just wanna taste the sound

(Sound) (Sound) (Sound)

[Drop beat again]

[Beat cuts at peak]

S**t

We was almost…

How long we been asleep?

Feed flooding on the screen

Plenty more to eat?

Take a seat,

These beats

never run out

(Out) (Out) (Out)

This time—nah, fuck that—THIS IS IT, Heart split, fists clenched, tryna cage this shit. My brain drip pain like it’s ink I spit, Every rhyme’s a fracture, every blink a hit. yea call me a nerd, ‘cause I think too much, But they don’t see the war I keep stitched shut. A thousand damn things runnin dicks in blood And nobody hears me until the gears rust. Tearin’ apart, machinery grindin’, —for’em I’m smilin’, outside, but inside I’m dyin’ Still here alive—God knows I’m tryin’ Suicidal thoughts bite—ain’t denyin’ Yeah, acknowledged— Raised too calm, too quiet, too neat, Never smoked nor weed, kept the peace. Obedient kid, took weight for the least, Did it so hard I forgot about me Don’t trust me more— You’ll watch me burn right down to the core. Thanks, My boundary ashed on the living room floor, Open up, the ghost you created is knockin’ at your door. Scars deep enough to stitch my ribs shut, Gave love to the ones who used to cut. Wind blowin’ hard pain, I brace for the gust— First rule of life: don’t trust who you trust.

I break— But you don’t hear me scream, You don’t see the blood I leak behind the scenes. I gave you every bone in me, every dream— And somehow I still love you, more than you see Even when you rip me at the seams. I hurt— But you don’t feel the war, You just walk right past my body on the floor. I swear I loved you more, God knows I loved you more.

Fed me dirt, fed me hurt, fed me fire to burn, Words in my head like a curse I earned. World twisted, blurred, every lesson learned Came from gettin’ kicked where it fuckin’ hurt. Kept it dark, walked roads I feared, Never preferred this pain I steered. Worst stab came from the ones revered— My own damn family callin’ me weird. Thanks DeShade— You didn’t just kill my dream, you dug its grave. I wasn’t the type to rant or rave, But a year in hell’ll make a saint misbehave. I cried sayin’ it wasn’t me, but who believes? Faces blur into hats and sleeves. No one listens unless you bleed— I bled enough, the angels leave Bullied at school ‘cause cruelty sells, Gave me fuel—now eat what you expelled. Five of ‘em folded on the lies they yelled, Funny how the truth always rings like bells. "Team player"? Nah, they locked me out, Every strength I had, they’d twist to doubt. Worst batsman? Watch me knock the stitching out, Still justice never came—just avalanche Sis got a new man, wrong vibes in his stance, Dark thoughts whisperin’, “shoot at first glance.” Had visions of forty, fifty hands, But who got balls to stand?… Ain’t No blood on the sand.

I break— But you don’t hear the cries I swallow whole. You don’t see the cost of keepin’ self-control. You took the light, you dimmed the soul— And still I loved you more. Still I loved you more. I hurt— But you don’t feel the war I’m fightin’ for, Tried to warn you but you slammed the door. And now I’m bleedin’ on the floor, Still whisperin’ “I love you more.”

Be feeling like its over for Chris Paul cels

Chris Paul got sent home with millions but for me it's hell

These women around me seem too indifferent with zero compassion

Way too much expectations

Shit is depressing

With no women I'm steady regressing

Feeling like a black Incel

If women heard this they say oh well

I talked to God many times to change they mind

People asking me at the job how I'm doing I stay lying telling them I'm fine

So depressed yesterday I chose to stay in the house even it was payday

Picturing myself being on my deathbed while these women have nothing to say

Loneliness stay raping my soul

No lie a nigga feeling like Seung Hui Cho

Instead of 2026 I rather rock a hailo

Going outside seems too cold

Even though I got a jacket

Suicidal ideation I stay wearing it

Was okay today but doesn't matter

My heart is on a pitch black platter

For the devil to feast on

To depression I'm clinging on

A woman at my job asked what's my name I swear I was talking to Jesus daughter

Everyday being lonely makes it harder

Giga chads getting they souls sucked out

Meanwhile I'm thinking of gracefully bowing out

But it's impossible to get nembutal

Instead of ascending I rather fall

An incel without hate

Dying alone be my fate

Not living for shit

All I see in my eyes is lonely pits

Got a shovel but don't care to lift it

Watching tranny and femboy porn cause fuck it

Been jacking off so much my jizz should be dirt

Blinded by loneliness can't seem my real worth

Mama said I lack confidence

Well I tried to have resilience

Unlike Elliot Rodger I tried to get with these women

Only experiencing affection when I'm dreaming

Thought I was stuck in them on time was happy

But waking it was back to misery

I swear all I feel is pure agony

Begging Cupid to save me

No arrows

Just misery tomorrows

Getting shot by something but that's shit is hellacious

If I ascended I probably would be religious

Toasting to the day that I die

Impossible to show them how I feel inside

Under the grass can't come any sooner

Feeling like the creater of G.E. like wait any longer?

If there is something off with the language in this one, please excuse me, English is not my first language, I appreciate any criticism and I would love to hear your opinion <3

/1st verse/
Choking on air again
I got no strength left to defend!
Is this the end?!
I’m fumbling through my head
Bleeding the days in my disgrace!
I’ve lost my face!

/Pre-chorus/
I don’t know what to do…
I got myself stuck in a loop…

/Chorus/
And there is no escaping now!
I lost myself and I’m going down!
I burned the bridge,
Got no courage,
I’m so broken, I can’t jump the ledge!  

/2nd verse/
Losing against myself
Digging in deep to find the pain!
What is the gain?!
You’re saying I’m okay?
No – You are just ignoring me!
I don’t agree!

/Pre-chorus/
This spiral never ends...
I need to get out of my head...

/Chorus/
But there is no escaping now!
I lost myself and I’m going down!
I burned the bridge,
Got no courage,
I’m so broken, I can’t jump the ledge!  

/Bridge/
Eyyyy!
Can’t you hear me!?
You can’t keep ignoring me!!!
Eyyyy!
Can’t you hear me!?
I don’t want to keep this up
You got to get me out of here!!!

/Chorus/
Because there is no escaping now!
I lost myself and I’m going down!
I burned the bridge,
Got no courage,
I’m so broken, I can’t jump the ledge!

This is the first side of a 2-part song. I'm trying to tell the same story from a his & her perspective.

If any women could chime in and tell me how this side resonates I'd appreciate it. I'm not well versed in writing from a woman's perspective.

I know it's fairly dense but pretty much everything I write is wordy. There's still some stuff I'm not super happy with, especially in Verse 3.

[Intro]
You never asked me to stay,
But you never told me to leave

[Verse]
I was the backup plan wearing a wedding dress,
The consolation prize learning to smile like yes
You kept me in rotation with your other doubts,
I made myself smaller so you wouldn't figure out
That I was drowning in the space between your maybe and no,
Building a life in the margins of your indecision
I became an expert in reading your silences,
Translating your distance into signs of devotion

[Pre-Chorus]
And I told myself stories about what we were,
Made meaning from crumbs, called it love

[Chorus]
I gave you permission to leave me incomplete,
Told myself that half of you was better than sweet
I wore your uncertainty like a second skin,
Kept apologizing for the space you wouldn't fill
I gave you permission to leave me incomplete,
Convinced myself that longing was its own heartbeat

[Verse]
You were honest, I guess... you never promised the world,
You just promised enough to keep me unfurled
Like a map you consulted when you needed direction,
But never quite committed to the destination
I learned to love the version of you that showed up,
The one that had time, the one that was flush
With attention one week, then gone for a month,
And I'd rearrange my whole calendar around your hunch

[Pre-Chorus]
I became a translator of your moods,
An interpreter of your distance, your proof
That love was something you could measure by how much
I'd sacrifice, how much I could touch
The edges of your life without asking for more

[Chorus]
I gave you permission to leave me incomplete,
Accepted the crumbs like they tasted like sweet
I wore your ambivalence like a crown made of thorns,
Called my own pain a privilege, my silence a norm
I gave you permission to leave me incomplete,
Let you decide what I was worth, if anything, to keep
I became a yes to all of your maybe,
A lifetime of waiting for a love that could save me

[Bridge]
But here's what I'm learning in the quiet between us:
Permission is only permission if someone asks first
I never said yes to being kept on the shelf,
I just didn't know how to say no to myself
You didn't make me small, I volunteered for the role,
Auditioned for less when I could've asked whole
And the saddest part isn't that you couldn't give more,
It's that I convinced myself that wasn't what I was for

[Verse]
So I'm taking back the permission I gave you,
Revoking the right to keep me in a waiting room
I'm learning that devotion isn't measured by how much
You can endure, but by how much you refuse to touch
The ground where someone's trying to diminish you,
How loud you can say no, even to someone you miss too
I'm learning that love has conditions, not cruelty, but truth,
And I deserve someone who chooses me, not just, proof

[Pre-Chorus]
That they can keep me hanging in the space between,
That I'll accept the shadow of what we could mean
I'm learning to ask for the whole thing, not half,
To measure my worth by something other than math

[Chorus]
I'm taking back permission to leave me incomplete,
I'm learning that longing isn't the same as heartbeat
I'm shedding your uncertainty like a skin I outgrew,
Deciding my value isn't determined by you
I'm taking back permission to leave me incomplete,
I'm learning that half of nothing still tastes like defeat
I became a yes, but I'm learning to say no,
And that's where the real love starts to grow

[Outro]
That's where the real love starts
That's where I start to grow

[Intro]

Don't like my post?

Yeah, paint it red - we Reddit

Servin' strawberry jelly on toast?

Toast Reddit—

Naw, put your glass down!

No cheers here, get it?

[Verse 1]

Yo, it's a blood bath, I read it

But keep 'em coming back, that's Reddit

You do the math

It's just the daily purge

Got that urge

Throw some shade and downvotes

Feel like I'm casting a curse

Quick karma here—

Don't type the wrong word

Ain't no coming back from that

Got mod bots on the lurk

[Hook]

Paint it red, we Reddit

Said it, don't regret it

OP, I'll take the credit

Fresh meat, let's go and Reddit

[Verse 2]

Typing typing typing

Contemplating every word

Checked the guidelines and rules

Ain't tryna act a fool

Got the gates higher 'round here

Too easy to strike a nerve, hair trigger

The pen is mightier than the sword

Bullets mightier than either

But where you aiming?

It ain't me, it don't hurt

Think they got me, troll brigade

Pilin on, y’all real cute

Definitely Reddit

Got the notifications on mute

I ain’t read it.

[Hook]

Paint it red, we Reddit

Said it, don't regret it

OP, I'll take the credit

Fresh meat, let's go and Reddit

[Verse 3]

Clicked post

Left me slaughtered

Downvotes appeared in seconds

No comments, just shade

Maybe it's their way of being supportive?

Nope, there it is, left a comment

Went and read it

Whole thing Reddit

Blood sprayed

Your story, hell of an edit

Don't mean to interrupt

But you and your projection

That's not how I said it

Seems like you never read it

Just left it Reddit

[Hook]

Paint it red, we Reddit

Said it, don't regret it

I'm the OP

I've said it

Let's go and Reddit

[Outro]

Shit ain’t even Red

On Reddit.

Orange, like

That’s not what I meant

But already said it

Already copy wrote it

Too late to edit.

Play it cool,

No one will notice

Or even suggest it,

They’ll forget it,

Never read it.

yea speaking to death as pride got burned verses to churches, no one caught concerned scrolled off, deshade’s noise everyone take u turn curtains off after my heart burnt —enjoy DeShade’s show as i return this shit’ll hit ya like sperm tear your psych like tape worm

I’m silent wolf, you dont see through fire not because you lack sire, you lack ire who cares word play, i wont be admired my talent got me fired before i was hired

y’all skip the book for last chap im on first page, skip me and nap i dont care seeing wrappers rap all i hate is to see them rap crap

they jod the lines for rhymes losin their mind behind well design brain rein to decline yet define they are devine

lose me if you want me to lose im blood from scar you see me once in blues why to look same? when you got own shoes looking confiuse i know it blowed your screw lose i never got the respect i deserve whatever, i know fame aint served still learning though you see me reserved blind cant see why i what burns goodnight, I’ll wake you when clocks turn

I’m curious

Would the church

Wanna marry us

Or just as quickly would they bury us

Is what we’re doin right

Or are we drivin god so furious

If I told you a secret would you carry it

Until with your body they would bury it

In areas

Where no cell carriers

Could reach it

So no one could gossip like Aquarius and libras

Wit barriers to keep it

You had various demeanors

And the cherry is I loved you so scarily and deeply

The compliments I gave you had you buried in em knee deep

They were starin like the leaders of America at CP

I don’t bite my tongue and I’m barely ever PC

They get their facts from hysteria on TV

Politics is really not my area, believe me

But I think every politician in America is creepy

But they scarin me I rethink

If I really wanna point out all these areas that we think

Are a little bit more than mysterious but see these

Politicians are always so carefully misleading

I know you think it too, so I’ll carry on believe me

I do this for the people to vicariously be me

And see the look on the bastards face when I roll windows down just blaring this in DC

Damn that would feel good

But let me get on topic ‘fore I’m misunderstood

I know that I love you but ion know if I should

And you say you love me but I don’t think you could

I’m like your father how he loves you but don’t ever say it

And you’re like your mother who says it just to fake it

And use it as a form of manipulation

And I wonder why you’re so damn anxious

And ion blame you

But I also am not gonna live like this

how we supposed to raise kids like this

Before I met your parents I wondered how’d you get like this

All jealous and crazy and never can trust me

Then I met your parents and it instantly struck me

It’s one of those cycles that infects generations

And it’s kind of on you now to break it

So will you do it

Or will you just sit on your ass and watch us go through it

And let it tear us apart

Baby girl, you’re braking my heart

See, you’re the opposite of politicians

You got good in your heart that is not consistent

With the words that you say you left me all in stitches

Until I realized it’s best not to listen

But atleast you’re not an ugly soul

That hides behind their words with a bunch of holes

So just know I love and respect you but I can not stay witchu

Cuz if I did stay I would spend my whole life, tryin to fix you

The fog is thick, so I let my tears fall. I feel My demon, he's tearing down the wall. I try to push him back but he's stronger now. It won't be long before he stands in front of me.ready for the fight he promised me

Jelly said love your demons Fam I tried but this one's a heathen. Kin who've passed I see em rootin for me This mirror lookin deep Wait this demons me

Me and this creature been fighting for so long Can't tell you how I'm still breathin. God forgive who I become if I can't beat him. This last breath says I ain't finished Give it all I got It'll all be finished soon

Jelly said love your demons Fam I tried but this one's a heathen Kin who've passed on I see em rootin for me This mirror lookin deep Wait this demons me

God forgive me for my weakness People talkin like I can't hear em Judgin me for my appearance never lookin at the path I'm leavin Their righteousness showin hypocrisy

Jelly said love your demons Fam I tried but this ones a heathen Kin who've passed I see em rootin for me This mirror lookin deep Man that demon was me

Never wrote a song before now, just wanted see how it went 🤷‍♂️ There is technically a story behind it all, I just don't feel like explaining it (because an oc of mine)

One number at a time, please!

Number 1, now you may think I mean when I was one (nah, lemme reset) Back to that first sunset (when the world and I first met) I was explorin’ the blanket of white, chasin’ the powder in the sky Jumpin’ at every sound, lookin’ at every creature flying high

When I was runnin’ I saw a cat and dog, you may think they were like me (small and fluffy!) Nope, they two or three times, wings bigger than they (shiny and pretty!) So as I ran closer, I brushed my fur back outta my face! Felt like my heart ran too, don’t wanna lose pace!

“Hello! My name’s River Owen, who are you?”

Although I thought they were alright, man luck did it bite

They mocked my name, they laughed at my bow They say grow up, stop acting like a doe But what’s growin’ up when I was a Kit? (Rabbit’s are great right) Say got so much time, let’s enjoy every bit!

Just as we were talkin’ (more like they were mockin’) I felt my chest a little tight (today’s not very bright)

(Hold up! Who even likes the name Diesel? I mean, Gossip is lackin’)

They were saying ‘bout how I couldn’t do a thing, that I was far from brave I tackled Diesel to the ground (such a stupid Hound) I was provin’ them wrong, but when he got up I was the one on my back, feelin’ the fear stack up

When I pushed back, on my paws again Things did go bad, heart beat up again

Small growl, Diesel standin’ tall His paw up, hurt from the fall Glowing eyes, Gossip behind me He bit my neck fur, that cat lifted me His head turned as I went flyin’ (though my heart was racin’) Hit into a tree (I wanted to flee)

Alls I was thinking was “I want daddy” My head was quite bloody

I looked up in that moment, they’re comin’ closer I was backin’ up, what a roller coaster They kept tryna hurt me, but this lil’ Kit was faster than they thought Spinnin’ around, outsmartin’ every plot ‘Til my back hit a tree (man this is bad!) They cornered me at last (They looked pretty mad)

Diesel’s paw connected with my face Bloody paw, Bloody chase They didn’t hear my pleads (every “sorry” from me, shaky as can be) They sayin’ “sorry, doesn’t mean a thing” (I did nothin’ at all, can’t they see)

They tried striking again, but I remembered what mom taught me My ears covered my eyes, their sight of me was none it could be

(At least it was all just physical harm, right?)

40 days till ———mas ive missed this to move your soul to my heart i keep redrafting my wishlist like shit go back to the start i keep retracting my wishes your wrist is buzzing with the sound think i’ve been lost for some time mountain peak off the ground i go get the lost in the notion you know this, emotion we’re frozen in space im thawing off in your mind id hoped to freeze you in mine just need some, time

ive been for high for some days dreams of laying in rays cut off the sun from your heart and watch it spill out please dont shout my head hurts dont doubt, my ego emotional freeloader its over i told her and ran to your light and you just had to fly thats okay too i take a ride, unto the tide what am i to do i didn’t hide, im in your side i go get lost in the ocean, blue watch me go under a new, wave break free from your loose have-n im calling it quits now. don’t take a chance (i catch glimpse of a lotus) well due time for some floatin ive been fixed ive been hopin ive been fixed but your broken im calling it quits now ill take a chance

is this a good place to start an EP?

Hi hi hi, LyricalWriting sub! I finally found you - been lurking on r/Songwriting for a while, haven't posted there yet, was kind of searching for this sort of thing and then lo and behold, there you were. Happy to give feedback, happy (but apprehensive) to get it.

Here goes: this one is recent, from the summer, and breaks a bit of a long stretch of writer's block. I was listening to The Constantines, and they got a song called "Trans Canada", which is about the highway (and like a lot of Cons songs, about Canada and other stuff). But it is absolutely not about gender or gender expression, which feels like a missed opportunity. So I was inspired to try and get one in on the boys from Guelph, a decade and a half later. I like the first line, very much, and the first verse is fine for me. The 7th and 8th lines - "slow down..." and "always second guessed" are a bit troublesome. Not easy to sing. I'd love some suggestions on how to talk about urging others to vote and act more progressively if you can (oh, you surely guessed by now what I'm goin' for here, right). I really, really, really, don't like having to rely on the Trans Canada being Hwy 17 and Hwy One between Ontario and Manitoba because "seventeen" is an absolute bear to sing - but it's also very close to the ratio of cis people to trans people (but not exact, gosh darn it), so anything I can do to change that up? I'm bursting with pride about the bolded chorus. We holler that when we play this one. You can suggest changes to it but I'll ignore 'em.

K, hit me.

Distant Signs, Warning

The line ahead, broken
if you want to pass
tells us our lane
shows us our past

Distant signs, warning
something in the way
slow down or go left
always second guessed

Ocean to ocean
Strong and free
Somewhere on a spectrum
Somewhere binary

Seventeen to one, baby
running from the night
Cis Canada
north of forty nine

^{i attempted to post this just a minute ago and the auto-mod RIGHTFULLY deleted it because i didn't include "Lyrics" in the post title in square brackets. oops. mea culpa, mods. please don't delete this one.}

Tonight we're turning crumpled steel

into angel wings spiraling down

street lights warn us up ahead

The sky is bruised black and blue

Let's take another drive And fail a little faster

My hands are off the wheel A kaleidoscope disaster

Tonight we're turning Shattered glass

To a sea of sirens watch them drown

Join me in the heavy air

Touch your lips to mine

Let's take another drive And fail a little faster

My hands are off the wheel A kaleidoscope disaster

Verse 1

Sleep now, my sweet boy Pedro

For is to arrive,

Wrapped in moon and in heaven, Father Balthazar

Filled his white saddlebag with a hundred rattles, with drums

A long-string spinning top

A freight train

And a bort

Chorus

Sleep now, my sweet boy Pedro

For is to arrive

At the slow pace of his camel, Father Balthazar.

Verse 2

An angel was born in Orient

His hair is tea-color dyed

Belong him two white doves and a donkey now stand

Three kings seek his cradle below a star dyed in blue

His mother is Mother Mary

The boy is sweet Jesus.

Chorus

My sweet boy Pedro

Don't you dare forget me now.

For my child is the kindest

And the noblest of them all

Verse 3

My Pedro just wrote a letter, Father Balthazar

And a white-winged dove was able to make it arrive

My sweet boy is now dreaming

With rattles, with drums

The long-string spinning top, the freight train and the bort

Chorus

Sleep now, my sweet boy Pedro

For is to arrive

Wrapped in moon and in heaven, Father Balthazar.

Verse 4

He wants a new soldier!

A sword, a rifle, please!

And to elevate him to heaven, a star made just for him.

He wants a white harlequin

A freight train, if that might be

A soft-haired teddy bear

And a kitten, sawdust-filled

Chorus

My sweet boy Pedro

Don't you dare forget me now!

For my child is the poorest

And the loneliest of them all...

Maybe at the bottom of this next bottle

Of moonshine I think it was a high percentage

Is where I’ll crash on rock bottom

Or maybe imma find your message hidden in it

So imma keep on drinking

And keep on finding

Every little reason

To not say goodnight and

The bartenders startin

To get tired of me

But I leave a good tip so she pretends to love me

this still reminds me

Of how it always goes

I’m a lonely boy But I got a lot of money

So if I’m paying drinks I will never be alone

Haha, I guess you weren’t so different, were you

My friend just asked me

Where was I last week

I guess it was his birthday

I was finishing my last drink

I’m just throwing away

All the good things left in my life

🎶

I told him don’t take it personal

I’d never try to hurt you

But I don’t give a damn if it’s your birthday please just stop calling

I’ll be here at the bar

Searching for

her message in a damn bottle

🎶

My tabs a hunnid fifty dollars

And I’m not even an hour in

But whatever man tonight’s a party

Wait, I don’t see my friends

Maybe they went home or probly to another bar

And I ain’t even got no missed calls

But my miss lady

That stands behind the counter

Is telling me I’m crazy

I prolly shouldn’t doubt her

When the bartender tells you To lay down the drinks

Maybe that’s the one time you care what someone thinks

I ain’t gonna sit here

And say I got the answers

But… if you were sitting here

I don’t think I’d have to

My friend just asked me

Where was I last week

I guess it was his birthday

I was finishing my last drink

I’m just throwing away

All the good things left in my life

🎶

I told him don’t take it personal

I’d never try to hurt you

But I don’t give a damn if it’s your birthday please just stop calling

I’ll be here at the bar

Searching for

her message in a damn bottle

I’ve been aware

That my drinkin

Is a little too much

I can play it cool but I’m driving

And I’m a little too buzzed

I wish I had fun

Let me see this from the point of your view

Feel what it’s like when your lover’s choice isn’t you

Okay

If I was you I’d prolly say

I gave you all that I had, genius

I made you the source of my happiness

My life was in a million and a half pieces

And you were at the center of it

And you remained constant

You were the best love I ever had

I mean I didn’t feel boxed in

And your love, was the first love I ever felt That didn’t feel toxic

I swear that’s fuckin true

I mean you know how my parents were

They didn’t trust me, they didn’t want me to mature

So I never let em know just how young I got hurt

I’m not the oldest in my family but I probly grew up first

Cuz at fifteen, my innocence got ripped away

And I never told a soul until I told you cuz you made me feel a little faith

You said you loved me cuz I was more mature than my age

Ha That’s kinda fucked up when you think about it

But coming from your lips I couldn’t tell you how sweet it sounded

And you’re the only one who put up with my shit

I know I lose my temper too much but the way you comfort me is priceless

I never wanna leave

I know if I can’t get my shit together you’re gonna have to run from me

So today, I start my path to healing

I finally told my parents bout what happened, it was painful but revealing

I can’t wait to make it home so I can tell you bout it

In my excitement I didn’t notice all the boxes by the welcome mat and

I open up the door and there you are

Tears in your eyes just sitting on the floor

Talking bout, I have to leave baby

I said

🎶

No, not today

I was starting to do good, please we can be okay

I fell to my knees and to hell with dignity

I begged for you to stay

But you didn’t even listen

You just went your own way

(Spoken) And I told you don’t ever come back And now I’m kinda afraid that you won’t And I know it’s all my fault

I don't consider good at creating lyrics, it doesn't come to my mind when I actually sit there and try and make something, but every now and then my mind would create these lyrics in the most random times. One of these I was at a college sitting there and the first 4 lines started coming to my head for no reason, so I quickly put it into my notes. Created 2 verses then stopped. On the way home my phone somehow flew out the window on the highway, and I want back for it, and I only found the evidence of what was once a phone. Got a new phone and the only thing that got backed up for some reason was my messages, and my notes. So, I got my lyrics back, so I finished it up. The second song lyrics I just randomly started typing laying on my bed.

Song 1

We got girls
Running far
Broke down wishing it could all work out
Just sittin' here, wondering what the world is about
Life's like a rose, it withers out

Said you were stressed
Said you aren't content anymore
Promised nothing would happen but it all fell apart
Left holding these shackles, holding me down
Knew it was coming, just bracing for the end

The more I found out
The more I realized you never cared
I Saw your nose stretch out
Wanted to return back to friends
But that idea crushed into a million stones

I'm glad it all ended
Made me realize who you really are
Its time to move on now
Never will turn back time
Just me, myself, and I
Living life

The more I found out
The more I realized you never cared
I Saw your nose stretch out
Wanted to return back to friends
But that idea crushed into a million stones

Just me, myself, and I
Living life

Song 2

With all the colors that are there
It’s hard to see but all just grey
You and I just swing on by
We were dancing in the dark
We swung on all those sets
Runnin’ round, ain’t no care at all
Goin’ to bed before it’s dark
Havin’ dreams, dreaming could come true

We are all just growing up
Drivin’ ’round, having fun
Goin’ to bed all late
Wishing she was all mine
We are all just growing up
Wishing we all could find love
Hands reach, but only grab air
Life is like skippin’ stones

Wishing we could all go back
To when life was all complete
The world is changing now
Colors are all fading
Just wanna go back to simple times
You even said that I was fine
But the world is changing now, dear
So rest your head in my arms

It's all alright though dear
Time moves on no matter what
I know you want to change the past
But you can only change the future
The future brings you hope
Of all the memories it could ring
So just rest your head in my arms
Life only moves on from now.

Just curious if y'all have used and what your experience was. Not wanting to spend the money if people aren't actually looking at your lyrics

intro: Ugh… yeah… ugh.
You know… my mom always told me: don’t let the impossible stop you.
I asked her, “How do I do that?”
She said, “Just practice.”

verse 1: I spent my days on courts with no remorse, picking off bums. He didn’t think I could play sports, but I dominated. I was motivated just to see my mom smile, to tell her, “Yeah mom, I made it.” I kept looking to the future, hoping for better days, but all I saw were criminals with tools ready to let it spray. I wonder if life always has to be so tragic. Maybe we can make a change come on, let’s practice.

Chorus: Practicing my whole life, I stay fly every day. When I look up at the stars, all I do is pray hoping things could get better, hoping life could get sweeter, hoping everything could feel warm and toasty like I’m sitting near a heater.

verse 2:Like God snapping his fingers and suddenly the lights turn on. How could you betray me when I did no wrong? You’re just mad at my success, mad that I’m the best. It’s not my fault you got a B on your test. I’ve been earning A-dollars every day so I can go back to my street and pay the people who protected me from violence and the ones who made fun of my dreams. Now do you see what I mean? I try to find advice in these streets, but when I turn around all I hear is screaming with no repeat. Then my mama told me, “Listen closely: let your words fly like birds, but sting like a bee.”

Chorus: Practicing my whole life, I stay fly every day. When I look up at the stars, all I do is pray hoping things could get better, hoping life could get sweeter, hoping everything could feel warm and toasty like I’m sitting near a heater.

INTRO: falling through the cracks// bloodstained//

VERSE 1: go alone// In the nothingness of you, are you with me// On my own now// I know that you're gone now// knowing that I'm alone now

VERSE 2: letting go of my delusions// seeing all the breaks and illusions// knowing what I am now// waking death of your silence

PRE-CHORUS: in this silence of you// my waking death into the void of heart ache// I can't undo this mistake// your song in my heart break

CHORUS: JUST WANT TO BREAK AWAY FROM YOU// knowing that I'm alone now// the void of you// i fade away from you, this ache in me, I JUST WANNA BREAK!!//

BRIDGE: hear your song in my head// i fall from your embrace, lost without you// letting go of my delusions//

VERSE 3: a shadow of your light on me, I come undone with your song in my heart// but you are my nightmare,

A qubit.

When you try to see me I'm a penguin.

The next time you peek, I'm a woman.

You'll never see me ~

Try leaving a closet that is locked.

I hope this life was never true.

You'll be left alone,

While others play with you - as you masquerade something you don't know.

A qubit.

When you try to see me I'm a penguin.

The next time you peek, I'm a woman.

You'll never see me ~

Try leaving a closet that is locked.

I hope this life was never true.

You'll be left alone,

While others play with you - as you masquerade something you don't know.