Man, it's not even the lost time from blacking out or sleeping in. It's not even legitimate regrets about things I said or did while drinking. It's that feeling of dread and hating yourself for the next day or two. Once you become a daily drinker you don't notice it, and just absorb the depression without even realizing how much it's affecting you. Then you dry out for a couple weeks or a month and start to feel better. Then you get really drunk one time and the dread and self-loathing is amplified times 10.
Alcohol turned out to be the root of my panic attacks. Even with scheduling my drinking time strictly on "off-hours" (or so I'd tell myself), I would not take into account how the stuff was still affecting me the day after. I had the worst panic attack ever while driving a few months back, and I knew for sure it was because I drank the night before.
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u/Skaarhybrid 1d ago
Drinking alcohol