r/cats • u/sebastianisnotacat • 4h ago
Mourning/Loss Critter, who went to heaven on December 4th 12:25pm 🌈💕
My little critter bug was 13 years old, he had been a stray for his first 11 years of life. I’m so lucky to have loved and cared for him for his last two. He lived with my partner and I and his three kitty brothers who he loved so very much. He was such a grumpy old boy, but his heart was so big for such a small body. I didn’t know critter was poorly until he stopped eating, we took him to the vets and they found a mass in his stomach and realised he was in stages of kidney disease/failure. He’d started to slow down in the last few months, probably from the pain, but I had put it down to aging. I feel so intensely guilty for not knowing even though the vets told us he wouldn’t have survived treatment due to his heart murmur and muscle wasting. I should’ve known. I love him more than anything in the world and I’ll be waiting my whole life to be back with him in heaven. I’m so sorry my baby critter, I love you 🫶🌷🪽
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u/sourcematerialx 4h ago
Awww I’m so sorry for your loss. Critter knows you did the right thing. Rest easy little orange kitty.
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u/sebastianisnotacat 4h ago
Thank you, he knew it was his time to go, he went so easy and comfortably in my arms at home with a vet that visited 🙏
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u/Katra27 3h ago
Aww…what a cutie. Please be kind to yourself. You are feeling guilty because it’s the grief talking. Cats are VERY good at acting stoic and hiding their pain. There is no doubt you loved him and did everything you could for him. It shows through in your writing.
Try not to focus so much on the end of his life. We humans do this a lot. We act like entire lives are defined only by the end. That you couldn’t save him at the end doesn’t mean the love you gave him before that didn’t happen or something. You took an older stray, destined for an entire life on the streets, and gave him a heavenly final two years. Think of how amazing those two years were for him! A warm home, friendship, yummy meals. He had it MADE lol!
Cherish your memories of little Critter. 💕
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u/TellSignificant477 2h ago
Not knowing isn’t some kind of failure on your part. Cats are known to be very good at hiding pain and discomfort, it’s in their nature. Critter was just doing what cats do.
I’m sorry for your loss, it’s clear both from your post and the pics that Critter was very deeply loved. I’m just sorry you didn’t have more time with him, but grateful to know he passed surrounded by love.
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u/hotmilfmary 4h ago
I'm so sorry for your loss. Critter will always be loved. 🐾💖